When you walked away, I was left with nothing. Or, at least, that was how I felt. You were everything to me. I invested so much time, effort, love - so much of myself - into our relationship. So much so that at times, I felt that there was no me, but only us. We became that couple that does everything together, the couple that speaks in ‘we’ and that is always expected to be or show up together. We were together for three years - three years of love that I never thought was possible before. I thought that we had everything we needed, that we were both so satisfied with what we had. I know that I thought that, but I felt that so did you, as well as other people around us. As it turned out, however, you didn’t.
"I thought that we had everything we needed, that we were both so satisfied with what we had... As it turned out, however, you didn’t."
The day you left started as a normal day. I made you coffee in the morning, we had our usual breakfast, and discussed the day we each had ahead of us. I came back home from work in good spirits and found you already waiting for me by the table. As I came closer, I could tell something wasn’t right. Something in your eyes, something in your posture - it didn’t seem right. After all, when spending three years with a person, you get to know them. You learn them. And I definitely learned you. I knew from the moment I saw you that day that something was not the same.
I tried to delay it as long as I could. Ran all over the kitchen making us dinner. Shared with you every detail of the day I had, as irrelevant as it may be. Finally, you had enough and asked me to sit down. You said that you had to discuss something important with me. Unwillingly and anxiously, I gave in and sat down. I could tell from your face that it was difficult for you, that you didn’t know how to say it. I wanted you to not finish the thought, to say it was nothing and that everything is fine. But, eventually, you let it out. “I’ve been feeling unhappy lately,” you said. “What is it?” I asked, hesitantly. You talked about how you were feeling stuck in our relationship, how you felt consumed by it. You said that there is no way to fix it. You wanted out of the relationship.